Abandonment - May 16th, 2009

I recently experienced a situation that triggered immense feelings of abandonment. I was really quite surprised that these feelings even came to be considering that I had "healed" them so many times before. 

So, off I went into meditation and self healing to again, embrace these feelings of abandonment and release them back to source. 

However, this time it was different. This time, although I was shown visual aids as to what past experiences were being triggered and what was being held in my memory banks. I was enlightened on a much deeper level. 

I was brought to the realization that ultimately, we cannot be abandoned by anyone. Typically I understood that any feelings of abandonment that I felt in connection to other human beings were just triggers for perceptions of being abandoned by GOD/Source/ All That Is/ Infinite Unknown. This time, however, I integrated the understanding that GOD/Source/ All That Is/ Infinite Unknown has never abandoned me. That it is I that chose to disconnect and separate myself from GOD/Source/ All That Is/ Infinite Unknown. It was I that abandoned GOD/Source/ All That Is/ Infinite Unknown, so how could I be abandoned by something that never abandoned me? 

Well, you can imagine how this shocked every aspect of my "abandoned" being. It was so much easier to perceive myself as a victim and that I had been wronged in some way. Now I had to come to full terms with the fact that I was doing the abandoning. 

As I continue to discover and embrace greater aspects of all that I am, I continue to be reminded that really I have only begun this incredible discovery. This journey is ever expansive, ever changing and constantly presenting new and wondrous experiences that lead to even greater journeys.

I continue to be humbled by all that is yet to be discovered.